JESUS my Savior Lives in me
My name is Johanna. I was born and brought up in a Christian family, but never really knew the Lord. I am from Mumbai, India. For me, there was a God but He never really made any sense to me. After completing my Graduation, I went to London for business studies. There I met this man, who was my senior in college. He was about to complete his Masters and he already had a wonderful offer from a multinational. He belonged to a very prestigious family in that locality. So, for me it was like wow!!! I had dreams of marrying him, starting a family with him, having nice posh house and a luxury vehicle. In fact what more can a girl expect in her early 20’s. I was in a relationship with this man for 5 long years. After I completed by Masters, I too got a good job. I always thought that the man of my dreams would take care of me always. But, at the end of 5 years, he decided to call it quits as he thought he had enough with me! And in those 5 years of Live-in relationship, he was my everything. I tried to satisfy him to the fullest. He controlled me completely and I always listened to what he said as I loved him a lot. Every breath I took was for him and him alone. At the end of 5 years, he left me shattered. I didn’t know where to go what to do as I had lost my father a year back and had lost my mom about 8 years back to cancer. I came back to Mumbai; I went to a local church but nothing really touched my life. I decided not to go back to UK anymore as there was nothing left for me there.
In the meantime, I had to travel to Bhubaneswar to attend my best friend’s wedding. She insisted me to come to her wedding. On 28 July evening, I was searching Google to find a good church in town. I came across a name ‘Church of Christ‘. I contacted the church and was informed that the English Service on Sunday starts @ 10 am. In a state of desperate brokenness, I attended the church service the next morning, i.e. 29th July. I had only tears in my eyes as those bad memories flashed in my eyes. I felt so ashamed; so guilty as to why I did this! That moment the choir sang a song which I think I have heard on YouTube before. Every word of that song meant so much to me. It went like this: This is Amazing Grace, this is unfailing love, that you would take my place, that you would bear my cross, you lay down your life, that I would be set free…through this song there were tears in my eyes and it was just like the Lord was speaking to me! I could not attend the whole service as I had my return flight to Mumbai that afternoon but that song echoed in my ears.
About 10 days later, one of my friends sent me a link of your church website unionchurch.org.in. It connected me to an audio message uploaded on YouTube. As the preacher started the message, he said: As a serious Christian, our desire ought to be not to live for ourselves, but to live for GOD. He further said ‘Crucified life is not an old life, but a new life in CHRIST’. These words really touched me deeply. I had heard that beautiful song about 10 days back and now this. I knew the Lord was speaking to my heart. That moment I gave my life to Jesus Christ. I truly repented of my sins. I became His child on 8th August, 2018; a day I will never ever forget. I knew I didn’t have to be ashamed anymore. I knew I was forgiven. I can say this proudly today, I don’t have a husband; I don’t have a family; I don’t have much of bank balance; but I have someone who is more dear and near to me than anyone else in this world. He is my Saviour Jesus Christ. I met him through your church. I want to thank that brother who counselled me over phone and helped me to find your church; I want to thank the church choir and the timely Word of God uploaded on your website that truly changed my life. Today, Jesus lives in me. Let me add: God says he would restore back everything. For the 5 years I wasted in that wrong relationship with that man, the last 2 months have been full of joy, peace and excitement you won’t believe! Since the day I received Jesus, I have not kept quiet. I have tried to share my testimony and share the message of Christ with people because I believe if you know Jesus you cannot keep him hidden. All glory belongs to GOD. Amen.
Johanna | Mumbai